This week was so much fun and brought so many things into perspective. Wayne was visiting and we had such a blast. I felt like he has always lived here and should've always lived here. We have incredible chemistry and get along so well.
With this being said, many things regarding life –work, issues of stability, things I want to do, financial obligations and health-mental related topic – they're all also unearthing in a very natural way. Change is scary, admitting to change and in particular that you want change is even worst. Not scary even, just takes a deep breath to work through it.
This past year, what I have learned about working, money, things we are meant to do, enjoy doing and need to do is that surrendering to what is, not worrying about it and following that gnawing feeling in the pit are the best things to do.
Last week, my shortest gig happened. It was for US Weekly. I was a reporter for a week and the editor just told me to stand down. All good. I actually hated driving around, looking for a set to some movie I don't know, like or give two shits about. I did it, but hated it and realized that I actually don't want to do that.
Awesome. I have also come away this week with other observations. Firstly that I need a secure income and need to feel that it is coming for me to feel good about what I am doing. I know I can freelance and get work. That'll be extra bonus rewards now that I've mastered it. But I want to plan with Wayne, I want to travel for fun and be flexible. That takes a piece of mind and money.
I am so excited what the universe has for me. I know and I am confident that with my abilities, faith in the universe and knowing that it is abundant, good and I am deserving of all great things, I can do this and will make it all possible for me to achieve my dreams.
With that being said, Hallelujah to change, observation, challenge and creative frustration.
With gratitude.
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